I broke up with Tom a little while ago. We are still amazing friends. Anywho~

Warning! This is absolutely the most pathetic piece of bullshit you are ever going to hear from me. I have not bitched such a stupid topic since middle school.

Damn, this sucks! I started this relationship-ish thing with this guy one day and now I feel retarded.

Week 1- He wanted to date me and whatnot and I told him that I didn't really want a relationship because I needed to know more about him. (i don't trust people not to fuck me over) and he started taking me on dates and we hung out so much. after work, he would show up and we would drive to the beach and sit and talk until midnight.

week 2- Nobody had ever treated me so great. He opened up about his life and told me everything. he seemed pretty fit for me i guess. Tall, good-looking, has a job, great hygiene, confident. He kept telling me that he liked me so much and how nobody made him feel like this blabby blah blah. I opened up to him and gave him my heart. (That sounds dumb as hell)

week 3- He took me on this big trip/date thing. Seriously, the best time I had in a while! Went home that night, woke up, he was just different. He stopped hanging out with me. Strange. He invited me over to his dorm one last time. It was on a Friday. I came over, he was kinda weird but i didn't think much of it. Then randomly he kicked me out at a weird time and told me that he had to go home.
on monday i asked him why he was being weird. he said he was not being weird. Then i asked to talk to him later that night and we met up in my car in the parking lot. He said that he actually was acting weird and the reason was because i told him i didn't want to date 3 weeks ago and he took that as "i just want to be friends". Huh?? that was 3 weeks ago. Then why was he taking me on dates and holding my hand and that dumb shit if he was keeping it just friends? I didn't get it.

so i told him that this was making no sense. So he said that he wanted to sleep on it and talk to me the next day.

The next day comes, I figured he would ask to talk. I asked, no answer. So, I kinda got pissed at him for deciding not to talk to me after all. ( i got pissed through text. that was dumb of me.)
he flipped out and told me that he just wanted to be friends (funny how the tables have turned since the beginning)
he just yelled at me (through text...)

that was 4 weeks ago and he refuses to talk to me at all o_o What? Did I miss something?
i tried last week but he just brought up the fact that i questioned him and he admitted that he's avoiding me. That ended horribly.

Now, i feel like the biggest idiot for giving a shit in the first place. I feel like a moron for telling everything to this person.

I wish he could act like a normal person and try to figure this out instead of deciding that one TINY bump in the road makes all of this completely worthless.

I wish I could go back in time. But, I can't. I keep hoping that some day he's just going to show up and say, "Hey, I'm willing to explain myself." But, obviously that's not going to happen.

I would have rather been treated like shit this entire time than have been treated amazingly and THEN like shit.


Sorry. I needed to vent because personally, I don't get any of this.

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Scared..

Wish me luck!

My dream came true. I met god. I met Joel Mchale xD if you don't recognize the name, he hosts a show called the soup. He is hilarious and tall.

I went to see him live at Hampton Beach with Katie and Tom.



Other than meeting god... xD

Im going to Baltimore tomorow for Otakon



See ya

I wish I would have not acted the way I did when I took his money and blew him off.

I had received a commission last year, the kid gave me $20.
He had gotten into an argument with the girl he was dating (my friend) and hurt her feelings. She had told me, which made me mad, so I spent his money out of anger and didn't do his commission.

I kept seeing him in school... I felt bad over time about it. I know it's not alright to do something like that. I was just mad. I wad planning to make it up to him. We got a class together recently. I really felt like I made an immature decision. I was rude to him over the year. I was a bitch. And I always felt stupid for it.


This kid got hit by a speeding car Monday and was killed.


I feel like he never deserved to be treated the way I treated him. I don't think that he deserved it based on what he said to my friend. I mean, people say things they don't mean...


I can't say sorry now. I just feel bad. He was never a mean person.


Just... watch what you say...

To all of my friends who were friends with him.... I'm sorry for your loss... I really couldn't imagine something like that happening to me.

I am sick. I cannot speak. I have laryngitis so bad, words no longer escape from my mouth....

But apparently, according to my mom, I am pretending to be sick So I'm grounded.


Okay so according to my school, any senior who participates in the senior skip day coming up is going to loose their chance to go to graduation.

o___o.....

I'm a senior... I think everyone is still going to participate.





ANIME BOSTON NEWS
I WILL BE THERE! At an artists booth in the back of the artists ally (apparently).
I will be doing digital commissions at the con.
I also will be selling jewlery.

GO. FIND. ME.